This is the exact opposite of how i feel.

I havent had a good day since i graduated high-school it seems like and every day is monotonous and depressing. My best friend moved, i can't find a job, i dont have a car, i dont skate with anyone anymore cause people have there own lives and friends, i have no money and i have to give up a 10,000 dollar grant cause my dad and step mom dont want to help me out in school.

I have alot of bad luck it seems like and every day gets worst.
Yet i have more faith in God and i honestly dont know why.

God is supposed to help and give you guidance in tough times and i haven't been in touch with him since i was 18, yet i get on my roof every night and i know theres more to life than this just by looking at stars.

Sounds dumb but thats how i feel, im just super bummed out right now.

Eh, i would hope things get better but only time will tell.

Hopefully god comes back into my life because its been a while and i feel sad when i think of a life of with out God.

I don't understand my bad luck either.
I've never done drugs, i didnt drink till i was almost 20 and i don't really do it to get drunk,i don't womanize, i havent lost my virginity,i dont steal,i treat people with respect and kindness and i do every thing possible to be a good person and the only thing i want in life is to go to school and its amazing that kids now a-days want to drop out and do nothing.

All those dumb commercials with parents sending there kids to college, thats what i want!!!!
but my family is messed up in the head and its becoming less and less a possibility.

Hopefully it will change.

Until then, i gotta find a job somehow, keep writing,and try and be happy even though i haven't for a very long time.

I guess we'll see.

watch Josiah Gatlyn's part on THE BERRICS if you can.

It'll explode your brain.

Also "Funny People" was really funny and sad.
Adam Sandler play's a really good dying jerk and i actually felt bad most of the movie for Jonah Hill's character.

Its by far the most serious movie that Jonah has been apart of or most of the cast for that matter and i recommend it to everyone.

tonsils are swollen brah

There hella messed up and i hope to go to the hospital soon to see whats wrong with me. Since i can barely talk and i dont want to do anything ive sat at home watching youtube videos on my laptop while tanning on top of my roof.Ive watched over 17,000 youtube videos on my account alone and this is probably a reason i dont have a girlfriend or job. ill get both someday. Lately ive been watching videos on everything from the la riots (those koreans are so BAD-ASS!) to the crazy gay haters at Westboro Baptist Church 2012 videos,which theres millions of and i dont wanna post a video cause shiiit,there all the same in the end, and ive been listening to alot of CocoRosie ive literally watched eveything on youtube and i need a life. BUT KEYBOARD CAT IS JUST SO CUTE! and makes everything awesome."FUCK yooooO" lolz
i even found a video of Obama hating on people.

so ive watched youtube videos and my life is passing by and i havent even worked on my script in a while. Its getting sad. I need to get out of my house and do something but my mouth hurts alot and its also 1000 degrees outside. My face has a good glow though so maybe i should keep that up. Ill try and get outside and do something and ill call one of you special friends to go do something and if i dont get out of my house its because the new EPICLY LATER'D episode premiered and its about the BEAUTY AND THE BEAST TOUR!!! which just happened to stop here in Portland

YEEEE,i need a life. Hopefully there hiring at wesc for the summer :)?
ohhh snaps i just got a myspace comment from Jimmy VIA MYSPACE MOBILE!.
gosh i suck