i cried.

after watching this movie tonight.

im not all too embarassed about it because if i was,i wouldnt be blogging about it.
its a beautiful movie thats 2 hours long about love and paris.
its 18 short stories in 1 movie and there loosely connected.
i teared up because it was real i guess.Every short story,whether it was about losing a child or being a fucking mime in love,being alone in paris at the age of 40 or becoming a vampire,It was truely amazing.every short was brilliant and there are a ton of amazing actors who are directed by 18 amazing directors,even nick nolte is in this,go watch it.
but since i mentioned vampires,i just watched the best vampire movie of all time a few days ago and its now one of my top 5 favorite movies.
LET THE RIGHT ONE IN.

is so fucking amazing.especially since its off of a book and its from sweden.somehow they came up with something beautiful and realistic to a point even though its about a 12 year old boy in love with a 12 year vampire.
its loving,its brutal,its bloody,its cute,its amazing.the end is insane too.
ive always been a fan of foreign films and ive noticed that i love french movies,Amelie,the film i just watched tonight,the dreamers,high tension,alot of others,they just know how to make amazing films, but it just seems like everyone besides the US knows how to make movies with feeling.(except those horrible canadian films with the lifetime channel film stock.lolz,those movies suck instantely just because of the film they use).Dont get me wrong,there is alot of good movies that come from here but it seems like we are too focused on repeating the same story,making remakes or just bringing books or comics to life and only caring about money.
People want to see movies that make them feel some emotion and thats why i watch movies and write all night. I want to go to La and make a name for myself and be involved with movies that change peoples lives.Im not trying to sound cocky or try and be better then the person reading this,but ive had a dream of being an actor and writer since i was young kid and since i want to be a part of good movies instead of just getting laid and getting money i feel like i have a chance.I dont want to be famous.I just want to be respected and i pray that i can do something with my life by changing people through cinema.
so yeah.
dreams are real,theres no reason you shouldnt do what you want to do,just do it for the right reasons and not because of the money,fame,girls,crazy times,do it for you.

i think i also teared up,fuck it,i cried,because the title of the movie literally means
Paris,i love you.
and the entire movie was about love. and im sitting alone in my room and im 20 and haven't really experienced a real relationship(i did i guess,but i was 15,and i guess i thought i was in love but i just really,reallllly liked this girl who actually gave me an ulcer when i was 16 cause i was too afraid to talk to her).im not mad about it.its just weird i guess.im just lonely at times,when all my friends have someone to talk too or hang out and watch movies with or do any of that cliche romantic stuff but i want that.its just so insane that kids i went to highschool with are either getting knocked up or getting married and i cant even talk to a girl cause i stumble my words or squeak or fall down clumsily or just stay as a friends. Whether i know the girl now,or ill meet her in the future,i'm bound to fall in love someday.Maybe ill get Rosetta Stone and learn french,because i'm falling in love with the girls there,but same with australian chicks. Until then though, life is just a series of weird,awkward,funny,emotional,hard and awesome moments that will lead to something amazing. :D

THIs short made me happy.(the audio is amazingly well done.turn up your speakers)


This short made me happy and sad.


this made me fuckin ball.


thats only 3 of 18 amazing shorts.
watch the movie if you have the chance.
i get to attached to movies,but thats why there made,so i'm not embarassed.